December 4th, 2010
|09:21 am - waiting|
in philadelphia... and i'm the same amount bored that i was yesterday.
Current Location: philadelphia - sandys room
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: the today Show
September 29th, 2007
|02:47 am - Hello.|
Current Location: ?
Current Mood: high
Current Music: none
July 16th, 2007
I broke my boyfriends bong! he's going to be pissed. Now I'm all sad becasue he was my buddy... always waited for me to get home... and i would smoke a bong pack.... get stoned and it was just aweosme. I'm going to miss him! Damnit...
January 29th, 2007
|08:05 pm - BORED BITCHEZ|
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Current Location: Hole
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Since I've Been Loving You
December 21st, 2006
|02:35 pm - Stoned alone|
I'm in Philly baking again! yay. not. I sent my mom out not to long ago to get the stuff I needed while she as gone I smoked pot and chuged 2 beers.
Yesterday I missed my train to Philly so I had to wait an hour for the next train to arrive! So I just sat outside in the cold in my friends stinky hoodie... ew. I talked to Alice on phone while I waited and I also talked to her when I got on the train... while I talked to Alice I wrote 1/2 of a short story about myself and her. It's kinda gayy that I did that but I was stoned! ...You see after waiting for awhile I got bored and decided that it would be a good idea to smoke pot at the train station so I sat here with a cig in one hand and Big Red in the other and smoked pot... so the entire train ride up there I was stoned. Best train ride ever!
Current Location: my mind
Current Mood: high
Current Music: none ]=
December 20th, 2006
|02:58 pm - It's been awhile.|
Wowzers Charlie and Ruthi broke up so now Charlie and I can be with each other but we are not telling Ruthi about it for about a month or so. I really like Ruthi and thats the sad thing about what's all is going on the only thing I don't like about her is that she likes Alice more then me... Alice is the one who started hooking up with Charlie first and Ruthi likes her better, WTF?!? I'm kinda annoyed that Ruthi is still at the apparent with Charlie, because Charlie does not want her to live there any more... and I don't want her there either! However I'm trying my best not to be an insecure bitch about it but it's not working to well. The only reason that I have issues with it is because I won't be seeing him for about a week so we won't be having sex for a week! A week! And I want to have sex and so does he... I don't have anyone to call up (in Philly anyway) for a booty call but Ruthi is in his house in his bed and I'm in Philly... free pussy in his bed and she's pushing herself on him! I have no idea what to do. I want to know if he's going to take her back and leave me. I won't be surprised, I never am.
Last night when I was thinking about everything that is going on I broke down I want to be with Charlie with out all this drama and with out Ruthi but that's not how things have worked out. I want Laura to be my friend again I want to go to Starbucks and chill outside in the cold until they tell us to leave. I want to help her decorate her new apartment and help arrange things for her wedding and bake cakes in the new apartment and cook things like garlic without anyone freaking out about how they are 'allergic' to it. *Sigh* It's all over now... after last weeks phone conversation I don't think she wants to see me. I looked up to her so much and thought we where such good friends but turns out it was all lies... she does not understand that I stood up for her at school when everyone gave up on her I was there telling everyone they should not just leave and she really was trying to be a better person... I was wrong and she knew I was wrong and she never said anything. My judgment was and still is fucked up. I don't really blame her for things that I have done but I want to.
I just talked to Charlie on the phone because he calls me everyday when he wakes up then he calls me on his way to work then again on his way back... then again on his way to his other job and if he does not call me on his way there he calls as soon as he gets there and then calls me about 5 other times during the night. Any who he said that today Ruthi bought him stuff and is being super nice. Grrrr. I told him I'm mad at the situation and not him, that's true I'm really not that mad at him and I'm trying not to be mad at her... I have no reason to be mad at her she has issues and she also has no idea that Charlie really does not want to be with her anymore because of me. She wants to get back with him! Fuck that if I have anything to do about it but I can't say anything because it might start shit when she finds out that we are going out. The reason that Charlie is not just telling her to just pack her stuff and get the fuck out is because she might kill her self I don't know if she would really do it or not but I do know that she might try to get him to take her back. I know that sounds dramatic but she is bipolar and she has done this in the past with other boyfriends. I can never really be her real friend because of this thing that is going on with Charlie I can't sit and lie to her face even though if I wanted to I could and I'm damn good at it because I have done it in the past but I don't like to hurt people anymore like I use to... but if giving the chance to do it again to Danni I might just take it. I think Ruthi is a good person well I think all people are good people but I don't think she needs to be kicked when she is already down. She also has no friends other then Alice and I and when you think about it we have already fucked things up with her but she's just oblivious to it. All in all I'll just put a smile on my face and try not to screw her over any more then I already have. dddkdkkdkkdkkdjjasdikasjsdjjd. That's my brain. When I get to Philly I'm going to smoke pot and lot's of it... well not lots but some I just want to be buzzed.
I have to go catch a train... I'll post more later.
Current Mood: annoyed
December 12th, 2006
|03:41 am - please?|
Ummm, someone should talk to me on AIM (idiggwizardguys hahah I'm stone and I just got started smoking... haha there is more to come! wooo
Current Location: up yourrrr nose with a rubber hose
Current Mood: high
Current Music: saskdsdjk Christmas
October 18th, 2006
So here I am again complaining I hate complaining because my life does not suck. Not at all. But now I feel like being that bitch that has it all and still wants more. Well I don't have it all really but I do want more. Blah. I have no fucking clue what's wrong with me this week. I also hate being in a bad mood because I don't want to be around people... and then people want to be around me and touch me and hug me and all I want is to sleep for an extremely long time. School is not going good. I have to fix it and I feel like being lazy and not fixing it. Maybe after my lady problems pass for the month I'll feel better. Yes that's it I'll blame it on PMS.
I have not had any kind of sex in over 2 weeks. This is another problem for me.
In other news I found someone new to hang out with. He also has a car, and will take me places so long as I give him gas money. This has nothing to do with what I was just talking about, but I burnt my finger and it hurts like a bitch.
I hope everyone does not think of me as a selfish bitch because I'm really not...or I try not to be anyway. I wish I had something better to complain about. After awhile I'll be back to my chipper self and I'll also have more interesting things to post.
October 14th, 2006
|12:25 am - Fuck you.|
Comment to be added.
<Choose Life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol, and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace yourself. Choose your future. Choose life...
But why would I want to do a thing like that?
Current Location: A bed of another woman
Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: Shoes --Kelly